And so that lost and unconnected feeling lingered while we were in the states.
Though much of our time was spent strategising around the mission of Blue Door Ministries and how to serve the people of London and the UK, it was hard to truly connect the two. It was if I had memories of a place in my past but maybe I hadn’t actually been there.
It was great perspective to read a similar account of this cross-cultural phenomenon in the book Three Cups of Tea. Greg Mortenson’s life changed when he had a near death experience climbing K2, the world’s second highest peak, in Northern Pakistan. The experience acquaints him with the poor people of this region who have no schools for their children. So after learning that a school would only cost $12,000 to build he promises to return to Pakistan with the resources to make this happen.
Upon leaving Pakistan it says “On the flight out of Islamabad he had felt so full of purpose, scheming a dozen different ways to raise money for the school. But back in Berkley California, Greg Mortenson couldn’t orient himself. He felt blotted out under the relentlessly sunny skies, among prosperous college students strolling happily toward their next espresso, and his promise to Haji Ali felt more like a half remembered movie he’d dozed through on one of his three interminable flights.
This truly wound up my feelings and thoughts into a few short words. A half-remembered dream.
Have you even lost or abandoned any dreams because you left the “feeling” behind and just decided that your vision might not have been real?